how to disappear completely

No regrets.

Tue, 22 May 2007 03:57:07 GMT

"You cannot stay on the summit forever; you have to come down again. So why bother in the first place? Just this: what is above knows what is below, but what is below does not know what is above. One climbs, one sees. One descends, one sees no longer, but one has seen. There is an art of conducting oneself in the lower regions by the memory of what one saw higher up. When one can no longer see, one can at least still know." --Rene Daumal

Just a few minutes more?

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 07:41:14 GMT

Today was undoubtedly one of the shittiest days I have had in a long time. It's ok though, I will wallow in my dreams and then wake up and delete this!

But thanks; I owe you one.

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 06:52:11 GMT

Lalalallaaaaaaa life is wonderful.

My self-esteem was shot to shit on Monday; I extremely dislike crying in front of other people, and
I've spent approximately 13 hours per day at school this week, and
Fullerton is tomorrow/Saturday and my scene is whack as hell-- it's fondly known as the breasts scene, and involves an interpretive death dance, and
My feet are going to fall off from intense high-heeled "I want to be in America/Ok by me in America" loving and
I had an interesting time getting Commission Election business together, but it's up and running, and
Bank St. is ridiculous, and
I am utterly exhausted of and by many, many, many things, BUT
THANK THE EVER LOVIN' MOON AND STARS, I GOT INTO COLLEGE YAYYY!

I am so extremely relieved, I just don't even think I can adequately communicate it. Thus, life is kind of wonderful.

Tomorrow might be nervewracking, but I have some wise words to guide me.

Congratulations to everyone thus far, you all rock my bright pink socks (and my legwarmers too).

Misconstrue this.

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 08:02:29 GMT

Frankly, I love you.

Love is not a gadget, love is not a toy.

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 08:10:39 GMT

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA.

Silly me, I thought nothing could be worse than college applications.

Well,
per usual,
I was wrong.
Very,
very,
deathly
wrong.

YAY FOR (expletive) FINANCIAL AID.

On a much lighter note or two, congratulations to Amanda Sandoval for getting into USC-- bug her about it because she's so wonderful and told, errr, no one. And PHIL-up-my-glass for the Windy City and SAIC! All that shit about it really happening is really happening.

Arti-chokes Two For a Dollar, Red Eye, Moose Turd Pie, Wieners, and Snake on a Plane!

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 23:29:21 GMT

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.

I wasn't kidding when I said that was the best cake I have ever had.

I love you all x infinity (and most definitely beyond).

Ay, there's the rub.

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 05:30:26 GMT

NINE DRAGONS!
is closing this weekend. 7 PM on Friday, 2 PM and 7 PM on Saturday.

I know you're in the mood for some more excellent entertainment after Hamlet night. I swear there's no incestuous snogging or bodies littering the stage in this one! (That alone is incentive.) If an additional reason is needed, check it:

Auteur52: oh man i'm so excited for the play tomorrow!

Yup, that's Tristan.

Providence, I'm Yours

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 04:04:08 GMT

Sonnets on Love XIII

"Give me a place to stand," Archimedes said,

"and I can move the world." Paradoxical, clever,
his remark which first explained the use of the lever
was an academic joke. But if that dead

sage could return to life, he would find a clear
demonstration of his idea, which is not
pure theory after all. That putative spot
exists in the love I feel for you, my dear.

What could be more immovable or stronger?
What becomes more and more secure, the longer
it is battered by inconstancy and the stress

we find in our lives? Here is that fine fixed point
from which to move a world that is out of joint,
as he could have done, had he known a love like this.

(by Jean de Sponde)

It's been a good year.

Levers and such.

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 07:21:48 GMT

Don't you agree?

What is/was your FAVORITE part about college applications?!??!?!??!
(Excluding "when they were finished.")

I'm serious!
(Please!)

Friday the 13th!

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 05:48:32 GMT

COLOR DAY! was amazing amazing amazing.

To begin...
The DECORATIONS were b-yoo-ti-ful!

The COSTUMES were genius...

And as always, the PEOPLE were, well...

promiscuous,

sui generis,

amazonian princesses,

innovative,

&bffs (like Mr. Regan).

Yesterday was a good day (shit!).
Today was not a good day. So far. GRRRR Collegeboard. Grrr me.

But...
Much love to you and the 13th!

Yes, that much love.

Do you ghost?

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 03:08:41 GMT

It's the end of an era.
I swear it's not in my nature to be awfully cryptic.

OPEN FORUM! (Tips much appreciated!)
College application advice? Including any colleges you think would be worth checking out, because my list for sure ain't finalized yet.

Many thanks!

P.S. Happy Columbus Day, or I as I think Mr. Adanto from 8th grade used to say, Happy Vespucci Day?

Pearl Harbor sucked and I miss you. [already.]

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 21:13:35 GMT

Parting is all we know of heaven and all we need of hell.

"Santa ain't bringin' you nothin' this year, 'cause you and me are gonna be naughty!" -Den-Den

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 23:20:22 GMT

Just for Crazy Carl from Council 14 of CASC Camp in California.

So I journeyed to the land of feelings, PPA's, facilitators, and warm fuzzies...otherwise known as...

CASC CAMP.
I don't know how to adeptly sum up the experience here, but I did sincerely enjoy it.

Oh wait, then my little brother ate lunch with a bunch of girls. Oh wait, then he got a girl's digits. OH WAIT, then it turned out she's a senior. ?!?

The most adowablest picture ever. Tucker and James (my stellar counselor) are best friends and therefore must match their combs. (Photo credit to Council 14's amazing CIT, Tiffany.)

Besides CASC being awesome, COPA is awesome, and if you dare disagree...

Dennis will EAT you. Just because I like that picture.
(Or as Tristan has so fondly dubbed him, Mr. Burns.)

The Stranger, The Mousetrap, The Bridge(of San Luis Rey)

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 23:04:27 GMT

Definitely worth more then a thousand words, the primary one being "bootylicious."

P.S. Please suggest a book for me to read? Voracious reading is the way to go!

Antediluvian, elucubrate, succedaneum, shalloon.

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 00:47:46 GMT

OMFG.
AP SCORES CAME.

.....
This is significant because it's really almost like the year-from-the-fiery-depths/bowels-of-hell --also commonly known as Junior year-- has finished.

Report card: check
AP scores: check
SAT scores: far less than hearty check
Living in places other then *bukz: check (it's now the library)

Wowowowowowww!

Are you my pina colada man?

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 02:17:00 GMT

"In a frivolous and violent world, why do you think theater and movies should exist?"

Input? You could replace with your applicable art/passion!
i.e. Deborah Kwon, why should your beautiful voice exist?
Clara Kim's beautiful art,
Emma Huang's/Phil Davis's beautiful photography,
Leslie Schultz's beautiful dancing,
Jason Lee's beautiful ASS, jk, music,
etc.

Well geez! Whoever knew it was such a beautiful world? [cheesy I know]

Root for Tud-or! Hiss at Chris!

Tue, 09 May 2006 04:52:34 GMT

GASLIGHT GIRL!
GASLIGHT GIRL!
GASLIGHT GIRL!
We heartily urge you to come.

Love,

Your favorite crazy drama kidz

P.S. Come on, even Tristan's coming.
P.P.S. Or I'm going to have to internet shank you with this indescribably cool icon Katie made me.

Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf?

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 08:59:59 GMT

This is for Will "Virjourney" Lee and Adam "Incest" Grab...

What Makes You.. by SheBangs12
Your name?
Your gender?
What makes you sexy?	Your ass
What makes you pretty?	Your smile
What makes you loveable?	How amazing you are
What makes you fun?	Your sense of humor
What makes you irresistable?	Your voice
What makes you cute?	How you talk

Quiz created with MemeGen!

First time!

Who is afraid to live without illusion?
I am George I am

"Happy birthday darling. We love you very, very, very, very, very, very, very much."

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 07:14:20 GMT

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY
ALEX POLLOCK.

Math is my favorite subject when it comes to AAS and SAS.

My Heart is an Apple

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 04:27:44 GMT

1) Would you ever date jaimebeaucoup2? Schoolgirl crush!
2) What do you disagree with jaimebeaucoup2 about? Maybe his potential.
3) Would laurrrrrrrrrra be a better ninja or pirate? I think she could be a super cute combo ninja-pirate.
4) What would bathos___ think of auteur52? "I hope Samantha sets me up with Tristan." (see below)
5) Would you set up bathos___ and auteur52? If Josh wanted me to.
6) Would taysoftball89 go out with modernity? Maybe in an alternate universe.
7) Where was bathos___ born? The Philippines, um I don't know exactly Where though.
8) What exotic animal would phadamblab like as a pet? My black ass.
9) Does emhsiung smoke? Goodness no! Well, unless she has some sort of very well hidden wild side...
10) What would emhsiung give _brown_keys for his/her birthday? Something awesome because she is.
11) Do you have a crush on bathos___? JESUS CHRIST JOSH GET OFF MY QUIZ!
12) Thoughts on bathos___? Too many.
13) How tall is fallohidepride? Very nicely vertically proportioned.
14) Did brandricebowl break up with you? Not that I know of.
15) Could you see yaylindsey and phadamblab together? Um...I'll sleep on that one.
16) Is refereelarry12 athletic? I think relatively so.
17) Is taysoftball89 friends with buhhuhimemo? She could assume her position next year!
18) Does jaimebeaucoup2 have a crush on ellie_button? Not that I know of.
19) Which president would shasthehippy be likely to idolize? Taft. Yeah, am I supposed to know this?
20) Is auteur52 a college student? Nope, but soon to be!
21) Does __rockinrobyn know buhhuhimemo? I think maybe...
22) Does spiderman071789 go to your school? University of Intense Parents
23) Where was _netzach born? I could not tell you. Really, I can't, I'm under contract.
24) Are insert_coolname and hamme217 going steady? Wow, going steady, hello 50s!
25) Has chaos_in_a_can been to your house/dorm? Nope.
26) Where did you first meet cahsahhai? Oneonta! Old school BFF
27) What video game does idratherbeacow remind you of? Kingdom Hearts because it's a fantastic game.
28) What is modernity's shoe size? Wow.
29) What rank would jaimebeaucoup2 have in a giant robot army? Historian, he'd take beautiful photographs of everything.
30) Would modernity and emhsiung make a good couple? Probably not, but who knows?

PREVIEW:
0) Would you pick up the phone every time this_sojin calls even though she obviously doesn't love you back? YES.

I can feel the goodbyes coming.

Spring Break is coming up...you know what that means...boys with low self-esteem?!?

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 06:01:03 GMT

Read 'em and weep.

Uh yes, by them, I mean this. Boohooo well it got me.

[EDIT: This is doctored and not the way Bill Waterson intended Calvin and Hobbes to be ended. It's still extremely sad though.]

Cher kissed 9 cats, one for each of their lives.

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 01:36:58 GMT

Steve Holt(!) was at Fullerton!

Unfortunately, he was a suprisingly bad emcee. I'm not kidding, after about 3 minutes everyone knew why all he ever says is "STEVE HOLT!"
Fortunately, Arrested Development has been picked up for 26 new episodes by Showtime! This might be old news but hot diggity damn was I excited.

Say what you will about drama, but man do I love my team.

None of your enigmas around here!

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 03:23:27 GMT

Do you believe in:

A) God or some higher power
B) Fate
C) Coincidence
D) All/some/none of the above
E) Life isn't multiple choice, Samantha, duh.

I'm Yours!

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 02:30:43 GMT

I'll sock it to ya!

MY QUIZ.....

Copa deadline was bordering on fantastic until Dennis gave me an asthma attack.

BUT...

Happy (yesterday) birthday to my brudder! He got LOST on DVD and although I was a little skeptical about it (such a high concentration of drama in 45 minutes must be unhealthy!), I'm kind of hooked now.

P.S. I will totally and completely judge our friendship/relationship/whale watching ship on how you do on that quiz. Hahaa take it because it'll be fun(nish) all right?

Wraith Pinned to the Mist and Other Games

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 03:03:51 GMT

Look at this ad Sir Tudes and I did for the Walt Disney Concert Hall.

I got a fantastic fortune in my fortune cookie the other day.

Truer words...

P.S. I found lyrics.

I’m going deaf, you’re growing melancholy
Things fall apart, I don’t know why we bother at all
But life is good and “It’s always worth living at least for a while”